I think I can...

I did it...I got on the scale and realized that I am in need of a serious makeover. I continue to lose the same twenty pounds over and over. I don't crave cheeseburgers or pizza. My nemesis is...sugar! I love it all. I don't discriminate when it comes to cakes, pies, candy, ice cream, chocolate whatever! It's all wonderful and I can't wait to get my hands on it!

I have never been skinny a day in my life. I'm what you'd call "big boned" Ha! I'm sort of okay with that. Maybe it's not a matter of being okay with it. I have realistic ideas about my weight. My body was, simple put, not created for the skinny jeans :) 

Lately I've been consumed with my health. The clock is ticking and my body feels like an eighty year old. I've got 2 torn discs in my lower back and a bad knee. The pain is horrible!  This extra weight I've been caring around is making things much worse. I've got to do something now. 

My biggest fear is not being able to pick up my son and swing him around. I don't want to miss out on the giggles and laugher because I'm not able to run around and play catch with him. I also don't want to be an embarrassment to him when he gets older. I don't want to be a fat mom! That sounds terrible...I know. 

So, I've been going to the gym more lately. I've been swimming and taking aqua classes. I can really see a difference. I've lost about 6 lbs so far. It's a good start. I'm trying to set realistic goal for myself. I think I can....I think I can...

Where has all the time gone...

It's certainly been a long time... I would say a lot has happened since the last time I posted something. I'm a very proud mommy to the most adorable little baby boy in the world, Marcus Shawn Devereaux. He's an incredible miracle for us. It's true, motherhood has completely changed my life. I finally understand what it's like to be late! gasp!! It doesn't matter how hard I try... I seem to always be running late. It's a miracle if I arrive on time. Being tardy was a huge pet peeve of mine. All I can do is laugh at myself. 

I'm finally getting to sleep more than 4 hours... in a row. It's AMAZING!  It fascinates me how much you can do with little to no sleep. I'm in awe that even when he wakes me at 2 am he's still so precious. 

Well, I guess that's it for now... the little Mr. just woke up!